Scheduled Downtime
I am wasting my life away, doing things for the sake of killing time. Whats wrong with me. Is this just a period of downtime that will soon come to pass? Maybe thats the case, my life has been quite exciting not too long ago so maybe I should just accept things as it is. Afterall, what goes up will come down whether you like it or not.
Looking at it analytically, I have no motivation. Because there is nothing to look forward to; nothing to aim for; nothing to fight for. Coming to terms with the crude realities of life, I think I am a loner with no life at least at the moment. The simple fact that I am constantly seeking company proves that left alone, I am bored and have nothing to do. All this thoughts of individualism that I maintain? Abhoring the idea of social structures. They contradict me totally. I know I am afraid of being lonely and at timeswhen I feel so, I just feel screwed. Haiz. This is just downtime. "Bah!"
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