The final Hurdle
Another sleepless night. Something got into me so I came back online from my bed just to blog. I think I am much near where I have wished to be. I am on track and all steady. Just one final hurdle that stands in my way. My identity crisis. When I was in sec 3, the darkest period of my life, I crushed my identity and emerged a brand new person. What I am today is the results of 6 years of self-evaluation and growth. Zen was destroyed just before I enlisted. I knew he won't survive because Zen was too self-centred. IN his place, Zente was born. I brought forward all the resilience and strengths of Zen (as in the play). NS thought me alot and now the journey as Zente has come to an end. I think Zente was flawless. Versatile, resilient, emotionally strong whatever. But there is no perfection because perfection is itself a flaw. The only way to breakthrough this limit is to recognize myself all over again.
Haha. Coincidentally, 6th June '06. What a perfect day to welcome the rebirth of Kelvin. Ok enough of all that shit. As of today, Neither Zen, nor Zon nor their advent Zente exist anymore. Because Kelvin is who I am now and forever. One name to rule them all. Whatever form I take along the journey, I must eventually move forward as Kelvin. Oh, and my title remains unchanged. Kelvin, the Fallen.
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