MirrorriM part 4
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But that’s all material. My greatest failure is with my emotions. Infact, my entire emotional world is rotten and messed up. For no reasons, I hurt and get hurt. I maintain no control over my temper and patience with my mother. I shredded my great friendship. I am indifferent and don’t love my parents. I have a screwed up set of morals.
(eg. I seriously think its ok if I cause someone in an ambulance to die. He is going to die someday anyway. People who donate to charity are insulting the "needys" because they devoid them of the opportunity to help themselves If an auntie sells tissue at orchard, anyone who doesn’t buy from her is a fugger cos she is already trying to help herself unlike losers on charity shows looking all sad and helpless. Come on, even if you have cancer or kidney failure or have 3 limps amputated, you can still bask or draw stuff and sell or do anything else to help yourself. As long as you help urself) Basically, I am inside out when it comes to morals. My moral distribution curve is infinite when its only a small matter but negative infinity if its something big. As seen above. Summary: I am a screwed up person.Haiz…why am I so impatient with my mother.
End of my 4 part late night blog. Training tomorrow.
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