I am human too. And so I feel. Right now, I feel fucked up. All fucked up inside. Yes, I am screwed up deep inside. I know it. I always knew. Just that I never show it and I don't care about it. But at times, the situation just reveals the rotten core of the apple. Not now. Not now. When everything is fresh and I am off to a good start in school. I wanna enjoy the high flying golden age. I don't wanna let this crumble me. No.
I want to say "Not me, thats unlike me" but I can't garner the strength so say so. Is allmy ego and outer confidence a mere puff? Maybe the saying is true. I wanna run somewhere and hide. FUCK!
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