K.Low
1 a.m. and here I am haunted by distant memories. A tinge of bittersweet, peppered with a little heartache. Doh...time really flies. Episodes of life come into and come to pass. Stories that bear so much are reduced to memories and words in Lucien's Library. It shuts down my egosphere and shakes me deep within. I have come far from there. Stories inbetween no one heard. Wel...there are..a number of keepers. Ready to tell the story, if they do remember. Haha. Thats all part and parcel of this long journey. I have changed alot to.I compare myself at various stages of my life, Sec school? JC..NS...and here I am, not quite at the end of this ongoing process of change and growing up.
Hmm..and I haven't been quite like myself of late...something that irks me...somehow, I feel vulnerable. Not like times when I feel I could take on the world. I wanna feel that way again. The feeling of invulnerability, of being the best and thrashing the rest, feeling as if everything else is a speck of dust, feeling on top of the world. Where did that feeling go? What do I need to find that. I haven't lost sight of my goals, not at all....damn...wtf...am i doing...
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