Haiz.I learnt something today. Janice is darn right about my insecurity. This morning I was just telling myself that I have built my confidence significantly over the past months. But then, security is a totally different issue. And...haiz....it led to quite undesirable consequences.
I figured my internal locus of control is way too strong for my own good. Such that, when I don't see the full picture, I feel uncertain. And such uncertainties rise too easily. Whats more, I often speculate such uncertainties to bizzare possibilities. Thats damn bad.
I need to work on this if I really want to become the person I envisage myself to be. Afterall, being a better man takes time. For 1, I think I should link confidence with my locus of control. I think I can supress uncertainties with that. The next thing is to cut down on speculations.
Its afterall part of growing up. Damn. I think I just shot myself in the leg. I feel like...A BBB rating treasury bond being devalued to a junk bond overnight. Haiz.
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