I feel I should blog to conclude the end of term 1. At the present moment, my feelings are mixed. Part happy, but disappointed, part stressed.
Except for my grades, I have achieved all other goals I have set out for myself. I missed the mark of a 4.0 GPA. Though i ain't far off, missing the mark does make a big impact. If janice can do it, I don't see why I can't. In terms of establishing myself in SMU, i think I have done well too. Since its my blog, I shall be honest. LTB was a learning experience, i think scoring A+ shows something about how people look at me in terms of leading. Being chosen as chair for LKCSP, I am happy too, it probably doesn't mean much to the rest, but in my point of view, its a recognition that people trust me to a certain extent. I am happy for that too. As to establishing myself socially, I think the westzone supper club, haha, although quite cui, was a great way to socialising. I am happy that most of my friends are more than Hi-bye friends. I believe I took the extra mile and effort to forge honest friendships.
I also learnt about my flaws. Going after debz, realising that we ain't really matching, being frank with the fact that I am insecure internally and learning to overcome that. Learning how to go beyond my ego to develop true confidence. Learning how to be nice to people so that it recipocrates. Speaking of which, I don't really know how I feel towards debz. I always held the opinion that I have got everything in the worl and all I need is a woman to complete my life. I did crush on her majorly back then. But somehow, it seems like I am still looking for that special someone to complete me. well...life.haha
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