Haiz...another not so glorious entry.
Performance indicator for the day? 1.0/10
1 point for saying "suppliers" and for the decent shirt.
I can't believe I was dumbstruck. I couldn't fucking speak up in class. What on holy fuck earth is happening to me. In terms of knowledge, I definitely do not lack behind even if I am not the most knowledgable. All the nitty gritty techniques for speaking up, I have them all too. WHat the fuck? Was I shy in front of all my friends? Or was I just plain zero on confidence. Either way its totally unacceptable. I imagine how people like Janice Yeo will be speaking up in a class like this. Seems like I have everything but just not exhibiting them. Totally disappointed with myself. I am glad that this is a wake up call. Compared with people like her, I am way off the mark because I CAN"T SPEAK UP.
on another more encouraging note, maybe its the bad stomach. Maybe its the early morning. Maybe its just a bad day. This will not happen again. And you know what, from this day on, I will have a piece of plain paper and a pen with me to structure my thoughts and follow the class discussion. Objective for the term: To be able to speak structuredly, with confidence and look like I really know the stuff. It will begin with pen and paper mind maps.
I thought this would be a good way to initiate
1. Understand the main point of the discussion
2. Brain storm possible related case studies, stories, scenarios etc
3. Draw reference between what I know and the main point beging discussed
4. Identify my point
5. Subtantiate my points
6. Quick mental rehearsal
7. Speak up.
If this doesn't work, I will try again.
Dude. You have 3280 days, you better be making progress on every single day.
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