Amazing.
A few hours back, I was telling someone to take things in stride. Not get stressed, to relax and such.
I was driving back home, and generating stress over nothing. Honest facts: I am not sure if I can get my internship because honestly, i felt I could have done better.Nervous? No. Lack of preparation? No. Only reason I can contemplate: lack of experience, not zai enough.
And now I am reminded of my 10 years goal. 47 days into the new year, I don't think I have made much progress.
So, back to the topic of generating stress. It think it's what motivates me, always making myself feel that I am not performing up to par keeps pushing me up. And when you up the ante, you look back and realise that unknowingly, you have surpassed many others. The only reason why I feel I am underachiving is because I can't surpass myself. Damn.
And so I settle with cointreau-tonic. No work tonight. I just wanna rest well. And hopefully, its gonna be sunshine waking me up tomorrow morning. Somehow, I can't feel chinese new year.
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