I don't like the way things up.
Its plain obvious to me and everyone else in the world that i have got a little something for her.
I don't want it that way.
Maybe I am just trying to deny this feeling.
Flip side of the coin: Maybe my gut feeling is right, this is just a mere crush with no end in mind.
I wish for the latter but shadows of what I have done in the past hunts me. Reminds me of my immaturity, reminds me of how I am a coward who only knows how to evade the truth.
Maybe I should consult myself. What do I really want? I want someone to complete my me. And relationship is the last piece. So I really don't want to waste efforts on these stuff before I attain my other goals. And what should I do? I think its to ignore it, do nothing because I tend to do the wrong stupid things. Enjoy the moment, and fight for the things I want. Ok. I am all set.
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